julialalala — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 16:28:29 +0000

“But who can say what’s best? That’s why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives.”
— Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Wood)

Mi vida ultimamente gira en torno a esta reflexión, en mi opinión, extremadamente acertada. Y es que ya quisiera yo poder ceñirme a ese pensamiento, coger las posibilidades que se me plantean sin tener que pensármelo tanto. Tengo la sensación de que me estén mintiendo, pero por otra parte, también sé que es todo una gran farsa…y en cierto modo, estoy conforme, porque es lo más cercano que he tenido a algo de verdad en meses. Sabemos que no durará, sabemos que es efímero, y aun así…pretendemos y hacemos como si nada. La pregunta que me queda es si después quedarán secuelas…

LifeOverTheLastFewWeeks

julialalala — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 00:11:00 +0000

I’ve felt disappointed, angry, sad, helpless, overwhelmed and confused. I felt anxious, excited, disappointed again, wanted, in love (?), confused, distrustful, trustful…whatever. A lot of things have been going on since I wrote here the last time. But over all the stuff that I’ve been through these weeks, I would highlight Tenerife, above everything. Not because all the fun that I had (wich I absolutely did) and not because the lovely people that I met there. There are a lot of inner reasons that will always make this trip unforgettable for me, that Im gonna keep for myself. All I can say is thanks.

Fearless.

julialalala — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 18:21:45 +0000

I’m 21, and I absolutely love and admire Taylor Swift. Say just one reason why I can’t do it, because apparently her music is all about rainbows and butterflies, and you are not able to listen if you’re over 15.

I was one of the 13.000 people singing along to her tunes this monday in London, at the Wembley Arena. There was a massive crowd of young girls, but guess what, next to us were two 30 years old women, with no kids around…they were there just because Taylor, and I think that’s great. Just because she’s 19 doesn’t mean she has no talent and it’s a product of mainstream. Actually, this girl has more talent than you and me together. She had the nerve to put down in beautiful words her experiences, and turn them into music hits heard all over the world. There’s always a quote from one of her songs, or even a full song, for whatever happens to a girl…it doesn’t matter if that girl is 14 or 30. We’ll keep on falling in love, feeling rejected or wanting to scream outloud until the pain is gone whatever the time in our lives is.

During the 2 hours show, Taylor made me cry and laugh. I fell in love again, I cried to an old brokenheart, I got back to my fifteens again, I took revenge to those who hurt me…I had the time of my life. She knows how to put out a show, she even made it rain in the middle of the Arena! Looking at her face, when she realized that we all were screaming for her made her speechless for like 10 minutes, only able to say I love you guys.

She was funny, sung incredibly and made my trip to England so worth it. I would definitely pay again to see her, because its an experience. This girl will get far, what she’s already doing is amazing.

Taylor’sMusicalMonologue

julialalala — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 20:01:33 +0000

Well, this is edited because the SNL video was removed from youtube. I should say, that every single video has been removed. They gave us a link to the SNL page, but apparently, if you live in Spain you can’t watch it so…thank you. Hope you got to see it, because Taylor was brilliant that night, she was great hosting the show.

And speaking of Taylor…I already have my tickets at home! I was expecting them, but recieving the letter was exciting…so much that I danced around the room and had to take a picture to believe it. I will be seeing her in less than 7 days! What makes it more exciting, as I said before, is that Im gonna see her in my favourite place in the world right now, wich is England. Yes, I ended up loving the rainy and grey weather, but most of all, I ended up loving people there. So I can’t wait to laugh and cry with Taylor next monday, and I can’t wait to see again my friends for at least a couple of days.

Untouchable

julialalala — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 00:29:18 +0000

Laying on bed, analizing every single detail as always. Him, again. It has been months since she saw him, but after all this time, his memories are more lively than ever for no reason.

She still thinking, trying to reach every single point of view. Too many miles. One single day in London, a joyful meeting, but without a happy ending…yet. No one said it was easy. Sometimes she thinks she forgot about that. One night, a pub, one boy with a pint of beer and a lot of promises at the end of the glass. She’s wrong, his eyes always come up wherever she’s looking, even in other people’s eyes. He will be always there, but she likes that.

And it sucks knowing that the man of her life doesn’t speak her language perfectly, not knowing in wich country is he or who’s sitting on the left seat of his Wolkswagen. But I told you once girl, love doesn’t understand frontiers…how far are you willing to get?

Speaking: I guess that it’s my subconscious, reminding me why this is all so worth it. And I can tell that it truly is. I’m willing to get as far as life itself allows me to.

DreamsDoComeTrue

julialalala — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 20:16:44 +0000

Have you ever watched Grey’s Anatomy? If you had, you will recognize that final moment when Meredith always finish with great sentences, reflexions and a great song that matches perfectly the moment sounds in the background. I still remember perfectly one night in my red sofa, popcorn and a lot of thinking…and of course, Grey’s Anatomy. I remember hearing “White Horse” in one of those Meredith’s moments, and completely falling in love with the song. It was sad, but extremely beautiful at the same time. It was a song about letting go, not giving up. She realizes that the fairytale she was in is not true anymore, but she also realizes that she doesn’t need it anymore. In that moment of my life I needed to hear that more than ever…so that’s how I started listening to the amazing Taylor Swift.

She’s more than a country singer to me. She writes her own lyrics,and all of them are about things that happened to her,mostly guys. And I can tell that (at least almost) every single girl in the world can relate to what she writes. She writes about heartaches, break-ups, crushes…and she does it in a magical way. Makes you wanna dance, cry, laugh…and not take revenge. I wished a lot of times I had her talent, so I could let my feelings go that way. Instead of that, I just listen and enjoy, over and over again…it doesn’t matter whoever that song was about, I can make it mine whenever I want.

Today I had one of those moments she could write a song about. It was a breakdown that I wish I could erase, but instead of wishing that…I just took my credit card and booked tickets for her gig in London, and also booked the flight. Then asked Lorena if she wanted to come with me…and she said yes. I would have gone anyways, but it’s better now with her! I’ve been thinking about doing this since I saw that it wasn’t sold out…but there was something holding me back, I thought I needed to save the money, but today…after this shitty weekend…I realized that I have to do what my heart tells me to…and it tells me to go and cry, laugh and dance to Taylor singing live at Wembley Arena.

I’ve got a good feeling about this….

SpeakingOfKarma…

julialalala — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 21:58:26 +0000

HAS GANADO UNA ENTRADA DOBLE PARA ASISTIR AL CONCIERTO DE JAMES MORRISON.‏

De: concurso@foxtv.es

Enviado: viernes, 23 de octubre de 2009 12:11:01

Allá voy otra vez, se benevolente conmigo Madrid. Comentarios a la vuelta

RustyRocketsInspiredThisOne

julialalala — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 18:29:34 +0000

Main reason why I still have twitter (but I don’t tweet), THIS. I love to see how different people, even if it’s my friend Lorena or Russell Brand, think about the same things I do every single day. I’m a quoting freak, and I love to reflect on them for a while. I don’t just copy/paste them in my infamous black notebook, I like them for a reason so I want to keep them near because I tend to think over and over the same topic again, until I get a good point (it’s not easy to get a point these days!)

This one came in the right time and place, and I like to think about it as a sign. Damn with the effin sings, I guess I want too much to see them that they appear even when it’s not necesary. Anyway, it’s a good one in the middle of a week of pesimism and impersonal and discourageing messages. So thank you Rusty Rockets, and thank you twitter, you gave me something really nice to think about tonight. The reflection…well, I’m gonna keep it to myself this time. I’m feeling positive and quite optimistic today, and after this kind of weird week, I wanna (and deserve) to enjoy it myself.

RT @rustyrockets: In spite of our instinct for self preservation we abandon ourselves into the mistery of another. In love there is evidence that we are one.

ItalianOuttakes

julialalala — Fri, 16 Oct 2009 08:07:42 +0000

Después de todo lo que me costó subirlo a youtube, no voy a dejarlo abandonado. Son las tomas falsas-verdaderas de mi viaje a Italia. Ya pensamos en nuevo destino, y he oído Praga por ahí…frío polar! No sé yo..Echo de menos a mi Inglaterra querida, mucho más a Brighton y sus gaviotas. Pronto por favor, pronto.

DearKharma

julialalala — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 18:14:56 +0000

Kharma, fate…whatever. I do believe in those things. I believe that we write our story while we live it, that the choices that we make lead us to another different stage acording to that decision. What we leave behind, what we fight for, all is connected and everything has a reason. I’m here for a reason, so are you…but we don’t realize until our last day. During the road, there’s a lot of walking, a lot of falling, climbing (as I said before). But somehow, after a rough period in my life, I find something that absolutely makes it worth it. That’s how I enjoy my happiness, compared with the hard times that I go through.

This whole reflexion thing comes because of my past actions, that led me to where I am today. I might feel alone and quite scared, but leaving behind some people, realizing who cares and who don’t, made me focus completely in what I’m doing, wich is finishing my degree. I might not be the kind of person who everybody loves, I’m sorry, this is who I am and I can’t change it. I can apologize when I’m wrong, I can forgive when they hurt me, but I can’t pretend that everything wrong with the world that surrounds me it’s because of me. That would be unfair and a lie.

Kharma comes with this, because all this hurt and all this negative feelings are turning into strenght to sit and smile, to show my emotions only to who deserves it, to focus (wich I desperately need) So it’s worth it all the pain, and if destiny wanted me to end this 4 years road alone, then I’m gonna accept it because I think that this was meant to be. I wanna be the best, and I’m tired of being overwhelmed by what I feel and not being able to focus because my head is full of worries. I think I’m just gonna let go, live with my wrongs and rights, and whoever wants to live by my side.

After a fall, comes the rise. I think that today I finally started climbing again and I love it….